Thursday, May 8, 2008

Unintended

"And when it rains,
On this side of town it touches, everything.
Just say it again and mean it.
We don't miss a thing.
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole
And convinced yourself that
It's not the reason you don't see the sun anymore

And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, I need the ending.
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain?"

-Paramore, "When It Rains"


Its very Forks-y here today. Rhiannon said it looked like there was going to be a tornado. I told her she was freaking me out.

I think the reason I stopped blogging for a long time a few months ago was because I realized something. I realized that I had an obsession with preserving memories in film and text instead of relying merely on my own memory. Last semester I spent a lot of important moments trying really hard to remember everything, and I forgot to enjoy the moment. I'm glad I realized that last semester, though, because last semester sucked. I spent the whole time crushing on a guy that I might have had a chance with if I hadn't been so scared. I made a fool of myself too many times to count. I made some stupid mistakes. Its cool, though. I've put it all behind me and I'm focusing on now. I think that's why I don't post insanely detailed and long blogs like I did before. Some things I want to keep to myself. And, of course, there are some that I'd like to forget.

This semester is going well, though. I have an awesome boyfriend that makes me smile like this. (<-- RAWR! A baby kitty!) And I've finally gotten my hair to behave and I've gotten the hang of everything. It always seems that I get into a perfect rhythm and stuff near the end of an experience. Oh well. I guess I can only try to make next year better.

Country music is the epitome of depression. For seriously. When I hear country music, even if its something very pop-ish and upbeat like Taylor Swift, I get depressed. Probably because of my hillbilly hell experiences. Cyndi Lauper, however, is the epitome of hyperness. And 'She Bob' is just the song to get me absofantabulouslutley insanely hyper. Haha. I am Jack's ADHD medication..

Today was supahcool. We're watching a ghettofied version of Romeo and Juliet in English (the one with Leonardo DiCaprio) and Capulet said "Give me my long sword, ho!" Just like in the play. That's what's so weird about the movie, its all ghettoness, but it has all of the original words. We're absolutely loving it. I'm going to miss that class sooo much! We have to do a research paper next week. My topic is vampires and Kayla was going to do Volterra, but then I suggested the Beatles, so she's doing that instead. Dude, when I got to school this morning I was kind of emofied and all ready to write like six chapters in my EMOEDWARD story, but then Kayla came up to me and was all hyper because her mom took her to Sonic and she got a java chiller thing. Kayla and coffee do not mix well. She really needs to start drinking it every day so she gets used to it and not so crazy. Long story short, she made me all hyper and I couldn't write anything. My EMOEDWARD readers probably want to jump on her head now. Good going, you stupid human. =p

My brother just got mud on the carpet. Apparently he has a death wish.

Evanescence is like the most depressing band ever, and I have no idea why I don't use them for writing music. Probably because they're so depressing that I'd go slit my wrists after I was done writing. Lets avoid that, shall we? Blood on top of my terrible handwriting would make it impossible for Esme to beta for me.

We did yearbook signing during fourth period today. It was awesome, but it was super hot in the gym and in the commons, so it was nice to finally get outside at 3:30. The yearbook was pretty much totally lame. I was only in it one time, and I don't even look like me because I straightened my hair for the picture. Whatever. Next year I'm going to play rugby (no, that wasn't a typo, I'm seriously going to do a sport) and join a bunch of clubs so I have stuff to do. Who knows, maybe I'll even start my own club. Like Supernerds Anonymous or something. We can have Twilight Tuesdays! Ahh. I totally want to do this now. Screw Hardin Valley, Karns is going to be the place to be next year. Haha.

Random picture time! Enjoy:
Random Picture #1
Yeah..I vandalized the bus. But I did it in the name of John, Paul, George, and Ringo. It was worth it.
Random Picture #2
New Years was sooo much fun. Do you believe that there was no alcohol involved?
Random Picture #3
Because Graphic Communications is boring..And if I get my hand chopped off in there I want it to be super pretty so Dr. Carlisle can comment on my 'art' skills while he reattaches it. =p

Hmm...What else...Nope. I've got nothing. Ooh! Four more days until the new Veronicas CD. And my superfantabulous human mommy got me The Host today. YAY!! I don't think I'm going to go to bed tonight. I'm going to drink something super caffeinated and stay up all night. I'm going to read for like three hours, then watch 'Interview With a Vampire' and 'Monty Python and the Holy Grail', which I got from Netflix today. Yeah. That's what I'm going to go do. Right now.

Don't forget to comment!! Peace, loves.

xo
Helen

4 comments:

Rhiannon[esme the beta] said...

i love how i'm always the person who happens to be mentioned during the random parts. i don't know it's kinda cool.
btw, IWAV is amazing, except brad pitt is nowhere near the pinnacle of flawless anarchal sexiness he is in Fight Club (and Seven for that matter). He's a whiney emo-kid vampire. I think he and Tom Cruise shoulda switched roles, Lestat is like the Tyler Durden of Vampires

Alice said...

My. Head. Just. Exploded.
AHH!
yay Random Picture Number 1!
Because they created sex,drugs, and rock n' roll.
weird. cos i was defintley having a conversation about that with sharyn bachleda today.
ANYWAYS.
interview with a vampire rocks.
the movie and the series.
altough i dont like how they chose brad pitt to play louis.
gag.
i watched that movie unedited with my stepdad once...
awkward...

Kayy said...

MPHG is amazing. u will love it!

and i am sorry that i was all hyper, but better than slitmywristemoness. right?

Rexpennae said...

Hehe, it rained here, very wet, and windy, no tornadoes, though.


Try listening to The Road Hammers, or something like them, not depressive country.

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